Just though I'd let y'all know I'm still alive and everything.

yep.

I'm doing my 4th semester here in Murrieta, CA. Not graduating because I dont have enough credits but am hoping to come back for a 5th to finish then maybe being and intern for a time after that. It's my 18th birthday on April 5th. Crazy isnt it, for those of you who were a part of my 15th birthday suprise party right after I got saved in March, 2006?! Man, well....God has continued to do amazing things and changd me in huge ways. Praise Him for that. The semesters seem to get better and better and this seems to of course be the best so far, not without its difficulties and trials, but definately a blessing.

I'd love to hear from you all, whatever you're doing.

Email me: break.likeglass@yahoo.com

Love you all lots,

God Bless,

Millie xox

I feel disconnected.

Today is wierd. Its sunny outside and everything is going badly.

This last week has been great through the Pastor's Conference having the Old Bridge kids here. Its so refreshing being able to live with kids my own age that are so on fire for the Lord. They are such a light, such a blessing to be around.

I didn't think it'd be that bad when they left but its terrible. I've been in such a bad mood. I keep arguing with Charlie and getting ticked off with everyone cause I'm so sick of the way they are with each other.
I need love for people. Love for the people that I just dont like. For the people I have nothing in common with.

I guess what's been getting to me the most is those Jersey kids. I've see their lives, how they have this big awesome youth group and this close-knit church despite its huge size. They lead normal lives, just going to school, working, hanging out, going to youth group and bible studies. Of course they all have their sturggles and not all of them are happy where they are but its my kinda place. And I so yearn to be a part of that, to have a normal kid life where I can be with people that I can be myself around, that I can be a kid around. Bible College is a blessing, but its so hard to be who I am around older people that are so much different.

Yet still...I know in my heart that if I were to go and live with them and be in that situation I would so quickly become complacent, become happy and content with where I was at and not have any reason to cling to the Lord. I always tell myself that I wouldn't, that being around people like that would encourage me to spend more time with the Lord but deep down I know I'd just get distracted.

I dont know.

I just want to have peace and be right with Him.

When all our hope is gone,
'Tis well our hands must keep toiling on,
                 For others' sake;
For strength to bear is found in duty done
And best is he who learns to make
the joy of others cure his own heartache!
                          -George Matheson

You help me through the hardest times. <3